چند ساعت آینده رو به دیدن ا. و س خواهم گذروند.

میخواهم وقتی برگشتم به ... نزدیک تر باشم.

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اوضاع هیچ خوب نیست. 

ضربه سنگینی خوردم.

چند تا.

دشمن اومد تو خونه.

عمیقا" ناراحتم.

یادم باشه قول دادم از حرکت نایستم.

Will call TL.

will call appliance repair service,

Will make appointtment with HRB.

It is time to turn, 

big time.

یکی اسب سواری دوست داشت ولی دست و پا نداشت اسب سواری کنه.. یه اسب سوار سوار یه اسب قشنگ دید. میخواست باهاش اسب سواری کنه ولی مدت زیادی اسب سواری نکردن و با اسب سوار ها نبودن دستش رو کوتاه کرده بود.

 خوب گوش کرد. یه اسب بان قشنگ رو دید و رفت تو کارگاهش آرمید.

A road trip.

Not feeling well.

Not feeling well at all.

Conv with the beauty, not being connected.

continuation of the road trip.

beautiful marine drive on the west side.

conversation not with the beauty but with the beauty.

no connection.

Not feeling well.

اوضاع اولی هیچ خوب نیست.

God, help me re-align.

Will do CH.

Will write about it.

وقت کاره حسابی.

رفتن تو مسیری  که ... هست مثل همیشه درجهت درست بود.

از اینکه ... رفتم و تیرگی و زهر وارد شد بسیار ناراحتم.

خدایا، کمکم کن به حرکت برگردم.

با .. قرار خواهم گذاشت.

لعنتی،

در جهت درست اونقدر که لازمه کار نکردم. صبح سختی بود.

صحبت با ... خوب بود.

صشدف ئخقث

الان که خواستم وایستم .. پا با تبر زده شد.

یه بار دیگه رفتن تو مسیری که اون زیبا نیست برای اولی نتیجه ه سازنده نداشت و رفتن با ن. عزیز و اون زیبا دل گرم کننده بود

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khodA ro shokr

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Have been not looking at where beauty is created in the last while.

There was a part of my that was upset that have been looking at ... out of habit and the source of beauty is not there.

The source of beauty is not there.

The source ofbeauty is in ....

And in ...

And in ...

And in ....

And in P.

And in AS

And in  H'And in M. a lot

And in F. a lot

My  dande do with F. about ... was not one of expectation

My d23 with F now was not what is out there.

What creates liberation

There are choices

There are choices

Writing from this space is good.

Writing from this space looking at the big one is good.

looking at the one that brings light

Much aited for and much needed and much beauty creating light.

The call with F was essential.

Will talk with the coach about going with F.M. and A.D. And expanding on it.

It is time to turn.

It is time to turn rapidly and drastically..

As partof the turn will count and write about the number of times the automatic-mode goes to ... where C and 2nd one are not:

   - 46 - turns towards words and C and movement.

   - Yadam bashe the 2nd one is outside and plenty

What can I give to F.M. and A.D? And M.J.? And AlexB

Want more nothing.

Will make 12 calls in the direction similar to FM and AD and MJ before speaking to ... again.

   - One, with Reza about his trip to Iran, possibility of bringing daroo, and going to Casino.

The inner connection is higher priority than the default, non-movement creating, easy, not character creating broken-step.

Want to develop the quality of standing (2nd one), 

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Focus period:

FM/IG : 45 mins

Intention, write, accomplish, write

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Wanto practice the turn in a conv with AB.

Want to 

Will call him and write here.

It was in the right direction. There was a lifting - much needed lifting.

Lost it and went back to automatic-mode where the 2nd one isn't and where 2nd-ers dont find the 2nd one and go away.

I feel closer.

The calls yesterday to FM, AD, and MJ was essential. And the one today with R.

Will speak to the coaches, about looking for C.

Vero doesn't have the 2nd one.

I feel closer :)

The experience I am looking for is 'with' the 2nders, during the conversation, and not a small / fake one after the conversation.

What is in the way is not leaving my comfort zone  paying attention to a limiting thought of what will S. think.

To start with the coach: build relatedness: accountability about NSCC, yoga, MuleSoft / biking / kayaking

No matter what I'll complete and do any homework for the 3 sessions package.

Harekat o barekat. hatta when doost harekat mikone.

کم کاری کرده بودم.

تو تا تلفن تو جهت درست نتیجه ی  خوب داد.

Want more of this.

Will be spending the next 5 mins speaking to DNV tax office.

Thank you

for the class with Sh

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روز ...  ام زندگیمه

احساس وصل نمیکنم.

8-10 تا از دوستها دارند میان اینجا.

وصل نیستم.

پامو گذاشته بودم روی جایی که نه حرکت ایجاد میکنه، نه معنی، نه سازنده است. 

صداهه الان گفت ... چی؟

چرت میگه.

داشتم جای اشتباهی رو نگاه میکردم.

دردهای این چندین هفته به خاطر اون بوده.

خدایا، کمکم کن با وصل و با قشنگه برم امشب رو 

و روی آ. س. ع. ش. ش. و احتمالا" دو تا دوستش تاثیر سازنده  ای بذارم.

صداهه الان گفت ...

خدایا، کمکم با قشنگه برم امشب.

Will be spending the next hour looking at open roles.

Will be spending the next hour in the class for I. and Y.

Want to be closer to the big one after.

 

مثل اینکه یه مشت محکم  بخوری در راه رسیدن به جایی که میخواهی و از ضعف دوباره پرتت کنه ته دره.

Will speak with 15 before going where ... is not.

خدایا،

به پام کمک کن.

پریروز جای درستی نبود.

شب به خ. زنگ میزنم.

... was an absolute mistake.

Once again going where .. doesn't exist didn't have a constructive result.

There has not been an answer.

Will be checking for responses to the message on L.I.

Want the role to be a match technically and be doable remotely from Canada.

The beautiful one wasn't there in the class with dear Sh.

there was struggle, pain, more struggle.

It hurt.

That is the price paid for not doing the work enough before.

تو چی هستی که بودنت موجب فراخی و آسایش و نبودنت باعث گم راهی و تاریکیه.

Didn't enjoy the conversation with the Whole Foods barista.

Nice, the issue with DEID 35 is resolved :)

باز هم زیبایی تو جلسه اندیشکده ی سقراط

want to play here.

زیبایی تو جلسه ی اندیشکده ی سقراط

Not happy about the mistake last night.

Not happy about ...

glad ... is done

not happy about ...

glad about the conversation with the bus driver at St. Georges.

جلسه ی اندیشکده سقراط

درد حاصل از انجام ندادن کار لازم به اندازه لازم.

Will be openning the 3 letters from the min of F. want all three to be fully waived.

They are.

Will be spending the next 60 mins in the class with I. Want to get closer to where there is movement.

یادم باشه هر کی مسئول چیه.

There is an important communicatin to be had with the test team.

The <small>small one</small> said .... and ... will be...

Let's see :)

One for the first one. There is pain. bikhodi.

pain, and moments of niceness.

A lot of pain.

glad ...

Conv with the lade at WW was good. a bit of light in the dark. a bit of light.

روزهای خوبی نبوده.

پام جایی که گرما تولید میکنه نبوده این مدت.

... و ... از دیشب درد ایجاد کرد.

خدایا، کمکم کن به کمی گرما برسم.